I’m sitting on my couch (it’s a rarity, trust me) on December 30th in the afternoon. The snow has stopped falling here in NJ and I was actually happy that it was snowing because I had nowhere to run to . Two pots of coffee and a quick shovel of snow, I’m here writing this blog entry. I started to think about the year that has almost come to a finish. I think the theme of “Change” is a pretty good way to describe the year as a whole.
I’ve always liked changing. Who wants to stay the same? Not me. I think that’s inherent in being an artist. We’re all about change and embracing it. That’s how we grow as creatives. External physical changes are easy to spot: different hair color (I think I’ve been every shade of red since I was 16) , different clothing styles, (as long as it comes in black–my fave.) The real changes that are most important are the changes on the inside, in my opinion. It’s those changes who help us grow and learn.
My son graduated high school this year and was off to college. I had to deal with letting go. He was my first one leaving the nest and since my mom passed away 5 years ago, he has been my rock. Yeah, it was hard. I had to grow up a little. I think he was already grown up and ready to leave the nest, lol. (There’s a saying I have that “We actually learn from our kids.” )
My husband had Thyroid cancer, which he beat, but then developed lymphoma, and later Lyme He has had two clean PET scans so no lymphoma but we are always watchful and stay on top of bimonthly checkups. The Lyme? Well, that is another story. We’ve become vigilant about our health and are proactive in addressing any concerns.
My younger son, who is in the sixth grade, has had changes in school, which directly affects us at home. We are trying to give him more responsibility to manage himself but in small increments so he doesn’t get frustrated.
And me? Well, I’ve changed some of my habits, getting rid of not so good ones and replacing them with more good ones (still a work in progress.) I’m making friends both online and offline with people who are more of my silly, sarcastic, real, down to earth, creative ” tribe,” who are positive thinking, honest individuals which is a good thing, and I’m weeding out the toxic people. Professionally, I have had the opportunity this year to work for really wonderful clients who appreciate and see the value in what I do and trust my judgement. Yes: appreciation, value, trust. Clients like that fuel my fire as an artist and a business person and for me, that has been super exciting. The end result is some really cool projects I completed. This is one of my goals for the new year: to find more clients exactly like those people. One of my other goals is to keep expanding my tribe. In my personal artwork, I started getting back into making my art. I have paintings in my studio that I feel are unfinished. I just don’t have an ending for them now. I tend to overthink my work and that has proved to be stifling. That’s another thing I have to work on.
That’s just some of the changes here….I’m sure that 2018 will hold even more change. I think the theme of 2018 will become (dare I say Change) Opportunities: opportunities to teach and be taught, opportunities to grow, opportunities to lead, opportunities to give, opportunities to create.
I am so looking forward to it.
I hope you are too.
Happy New Year, everyone. May 2018 bring us the most wonderful opportunities life has to offer!